Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers: Prednisone Sucks

 

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This past week I have really been in reflection about my weight loss. I had to come to some hard conclusion about my current situation and my weight loss goals, my plan was to talk to my WW Leader about going into a sort of  faux maintenance until I was weened off Prednisone, for the first time I had to say out loud that at this moment in my life weight loss in NOT my main priority.

I went on to the monthly 5K that my local Weight Watchers sponsors (if anyone is interested the next one is Oct 10th @10:30 at the Hyde Park location… all are welcome, you don’t have to be a member to participate) and one of the other leaders who’ve I formed a relationship with asked me about my journey, so I told her what I was going through and she suggested that I after I finish seeing my dietitian have my doctor simply right that due to medical reason I have reached my goal. Then I can go into maintenance and head into Lifetime Membership. I’m frustrated because this is not how I wanted to do this, but as we all know things rarely go as we plan.

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Last week I weighed in and I showed a 0.4 gain. I was happy with that despite all the activity I was putting in. I was premenstrual and figured that was it….this week was more of the same as far as activity was concerned and considering the fact that it feels like my face has grown twice it’s size (thanks prednisone moon face) I was expecting a gain but I was not expecting a 3.2 pound gain. I normally would be angry, but I’m doing everything that I’m supposed to be doing, and as much as I hate to say it …. this is simply out of my hand…. as it stands now my total  weight loss on Weight Watchers is  0.8 pounds…. like I said, nothing has gone as I planned.

For those of you interested Last Women Stepping ( 10,000 Steps every single day)….are gearing up for there October Challenge and all are welcome to join. This week I didn’t do to bad if I say so myself. This actually doesn’t reflect my pre-Weight Watchers walk (nearly 4 miles) it was good to get out and I was able to walk on the Lake Front and see the runner who were participating in the Chicago Half Marathon.

Also today I officially completed my 30/30 Challenge with Girl Trek and my golden shoe laces are on the way!!!

 

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Honestly I think this is a good, this will be a true testament to my weight loss, if I can conquer the dreaded Prednisone….. that everything else should be a breeze.

 

If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7,Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20,Week 21, Week 22-23, Week 24, 25, 26, Week 27, Week 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 331 Year and a Restart Later

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See Ya Next Week,

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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers: 1 Year and a Restart Later

FitnessFor a few weeks now I have been going back and worth with myself trying to figure out if I could still justify paying for Weight Watchers when I haven’t really gotten the results that I wanted. I can honestly say that the expectations I had a year ago about my weight loss are completely different along with the myriad of health problems I’ve has made this journey frustrating beyond belief. Needless to say I decided to stay on the program a little longer, and to rededicate myself.

During the summer I went to both my General Practioner and Dietician to see what if anything I could do about my weight loss, I was (and still am sick and tired of this plateau…. I have literally been there since I joined, and I got unexpected answers..it’s okay to be in a plateau, that’s what bodies do, and after losing 78 pounds, it’s very possible that I won’t lose a substantial amount of weight, that teamed with the fact that I am now on Prednisone for the foreseeable future, a plateau is a very good place to be. It’s been difficult for me come to terms (yet again) that my autoimmune illness is active and things are happening to my body beyond control that will affect my weight. I was also subtly reminded that after two liver transplant and years of immunosuppression drugs, my body simply will not react the way it’s “expected”. there were weeks when I got in a funk and decided, “I’m on this medication, I might as well enjoy the weight again”  and I binged and it showed on the scale, then I would get back into the groove then I would get back in a funk…..

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While all of this was going on, I remained active but the wright wasn’t coming off . I participated in several Weight Watchers sponsored 5K’s (I have a few more scheduled before the weather turns cold) and the weight still wasn’t coming off…. I had a mini epiphany, I can’t eat everything in fridge and workout, there has to be a balance…… I get it now, I’m working on balance. But the “middle” is someplace where I’m not comfortable being in, all my life I’ve had to work in extremes, and because of that I perform better, I’m learning all these new things about myself when I (along with the rest of my group gets the news that our leader is leaving; she’s off on another adventure, and this time she’s heading to Spain to teach English, I never want to begrudge a person’s growth and happiness, but a part of me, a huge part of me wanted her to stay. After that meeting was over I went to my car and cried, I felt like I wasn’t about to do this anymore, she (and the group) had become my weekly counseling session… what on Earth was I gonna do now? That following week we all said our goodbyes and we met our new leader; and like bratty children we saw our new “step mother” as an interloper; she would never compare to our mom, and we instantly didn’t like her. Weeks have passed since we got a new leader, and it’s been bumpy; and once again I had another epiphany. Leslie was not the reason I would come to those meetings, she gave wonderful advice and lead us, but I was the one that had to put in the work; and the support that I need was in that meeting room, so for the first time I took advantage….no matter where we are in our journey the nice thing is I can say “I’m struggling” or “I’m frustrated” and they understand and the don’t judge…. I decided since it was time to make a change maybe this new leader wouldn’t be so bad, she certainly wasn’t the leader that I wanted….. but maybe she’s the leader that I needed.

So this week was interesting to say the least last Friday I broke out in hives (yes I realize this is not Weight Watchers related) I was panicked, 1. No like hives, 2 This is the third allergic reaction that I’ve had since June and 3. I had a surgical procedure scheduled on Monday and I wanted to know if this was going to affect it. Went to quick care (after calling and not hearing back from 2 doctors my fear was that I was allergic to the Lovenox that was prescribed, I was told that was not it) medicine was prescribed and I thought all was well until I woke up the next morning with bruising all over my body,  Needless to say tat surgery didn’t happen, and since Monday SurpriseI’ve seen 4 doctors, increased my Prednisone by 100% (YIKES!!). So after 3 doctors went back and forth with each other my Lovenox was decreased (when I was off it for 2 days I went fine, no itching) took a dose , house later the itching started again and more bruising ….I have bruises on about 80% of my body..another doctors appointment then it was finally occurred to my doctor (cause I had been saying it all along) that I was in fact allergic to Lovenox.

 

 

Seriously, I itchy I’m bruised and any other time I would wallow in my antihistamine haze and eat. But not this time, that Prednisone increase scare the hell out of me, I know what Prednisone does to my body and for the first time in a long time I was scared that if I slide back, I wouldn’t be able to make it to this point, it wasn’t even a conscious choice, it just happed organically, I kicked up my workouts, started tracking …. honestly (yes even those things that I eat in the middle of the night) and I reached out to come of those connections I had made weeks earlier. my Weight Watchers has a Facebook page, and they have off shoot (Friends of Weight Watchers), 12027568_10153656969317792_2417940181286566140_nespecially for members were we can talk about what’s happening to us during the week, just a little added support…and just by chance someone posted something about a Challenge (I love a challenge) and Last Women Stepping ; 10,000 Steps every single day….at the same time I finally decided to be active with Girl Trek (where I have scheduled walking dates on Tuesdays, 1 and 3 Saturday and Yoga on Sundays), so I was able to be around like minded people, get outside (before the weather gets colder) and get some activity in…. So far I’m doing great with the challenge, I have hit my goal every day, Twice a week I’m walking with my cousin Michelle (who has just started her own weight loss journey) and going to the gym, I can usually hit my goal by noon; I have to be honest it feels amazing, even when I was itchy I was going to the gym, I actually went to the gym before I went to Quick Care (crazy, I know I was so miserable at the gym….I also didn’t know that activity causes histamine to rise, so I was itching more at the gym…… now I know….). So this getting up in the morning and working out has somewhat suppressed my appetite… I don’t get it, I won’t question it……so it will be interesting to see what the scale shows this week (the last two weeks have shown small losses  of 0.8 pounds and 1 pound) I’ve also gone ahead and signed up for the Englewood 5K. I’m excited….So far this week (Monday – Friday) I’ve earned over 54  activity points, stayed in my point range and will have lots of leftover weekly points by the end of the day.

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Those of you on the Weight Watchers program know that I change has occurred (and from what I hear more changes are coming the beginning of the year) and it’s all about orange

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There was nothing in our meeting room about changes coming soon, but after I got my new weigh-in book I realized something was different, while looking through it I realized that our leader had been “prepping” us weeks in advance, before we would officially start she would ask us about something that we did, for ourselves this week; that was completely separate from our weight loss, She always expressed how important it was to have “me time” How finding enjoyable things outside of your weight loss can tide you over on those weeks where you might not have success, in short…. Non Scale Victories and Celebrations…. when she first started talking about this I wasn’t ready to hear it, honestly I hadn’t fully accepted her into the fold so naturally I was blocking the information.

But I like the new changes, I like the small goals every 4 weeks and how focusing on you as a whole is now incorporated into your weight loss journey… like a lot of things recently this came at the right time. Things are not where I hoped they would be a year after I started Weight Watchers, but Weight loss humbles you, and you have to learn to be compassionate with YOURSELF….. I’m working on that…..

 

 

 

If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7,Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20,Week 21, Week 22-23, Week 24, 25, 26, Week 27, Week 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33,  1 Year and a Restart Later

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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers: Week 22-23

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Since I’ve gotten home from the hospital, my weight loss has been tough. I know what to do, but with the lack of energy on top of being on the prednisone and wanting… no I pretty much ate what I wanted, things have not been good..

I have been mindlessly eating and tracking everything
(expects the cookies the cake, the pint of ice cream, pretty much anything with sugar and fat has not been tracked.. and because of it I have not wanted to go to Weight Watchers, I have not wanted to look at the number on the scale because I know it’s gone up, and I know exactly why.  So let’s  just start off with the amazing, awesomely frustration stuff first. I gained 6 pounds in 2 weeks.. ugh!

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Week 22: The topic that week was “Eating Food – or Your Feelings”. Well I think we all know what I’ve been doing I’ve been eating the hell out of my feelings. I think some where in the back of my mind I’ve been thinking I’m on Prednisone; it’s gonna make me gain weight, so what does it matter if I eat what I want?

So when I got home I jotted down some things that I wanted to delve further into when it comes to my emotional eating. And I realized that I do the following:

  • Pre-Emptive Eating: sometimes I have a tendency to eat when I’m not hungry (this tends to happen if I’m going out) because I don’t think that I’m gonna have what I want when I’m out of the house = BAD HABIT. Why am I eating when I’m not hungry?
  • Eating Out of Boredom
  • Eating Out of Habit
  • Social Eating

I need to figure out What I’m Hungry For because it’s become apparent that 80% of the time it’s not food. And if I continue on the path that I am on; those 79 pounds are gonna come back quickly.  So these are things that I need to work on.

  • Preparing Snacks and Meals ahead of time: I was doing that up until my hospitalization, but when I came home I eat frozen, microwavable stuff that was high in fat and sodium because it was easy
  • Comfort/Comfort Food: Surgery takes a lot out of you, and I won’t deny that I needed comfort; I wanted to feel better and because I have yet to learn the difference between comfort and comfort  food I went to food again and again.
  • Bring Attention to the Situation: Realize what I’m doing in the moment and correct my actions
  • Engaging With Others
  • Support: I’m not the only person on a weight loss journey, I know quite a few people, yet I no longer use them as a resource.. I need to do that.
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  • Balance vs. All Or Nothing: I go between the two, so make times I’ve walked into a meeting thinking if I don’t loss weight this week, the entire week is ruined.. weight loss is a balance… intellectually I know what, but logical reason goes out of the window when I step on the scale

this is a lot to work on, and I knew that it wasn’t gonna take a week to work through (which was one of the reasons why I didn’t post last week).  So I made sure to arm myself with the finest snacks Weight Watchers had to offer and went on my way…. hoping that the next week would be better.

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We also got these in the meeting… just something else to get me motivated to go.

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Week 23: Last weeks Topic was “Mindful Eating” (*blank stare* Who are the people who come up with these topics and why are they super relevant to me right now?)

The Saturday before the meeting I decided I was not going to weigh-in (although I was still going to attend the meeting) I felt like I couldn’t see the number on the scale, even with the revelations from last week my behavior didn’t change and I knew I gained weight, hell I could feel it. When I got on the scale I was surprised by how much a gain it was.
Earlier in the week I had gone to see several doctors and my wound was closing; according to the doctor 2 weeks, and I could resume normal activity as my body allowed. My Prednisone was reduced from 20mg to 10mg…. I felt like these were positive changed that would help me with my weight loss. I walked into the meeting and decided, “Screw This, Get on the Scale and see where you need to START from”

I decided on the way to the meeting that Sunday was gonna be a new start and even though I didn’t want to see the number I NEEDED to see it.

This week something happened, I was at my parents house and there was cake (it was a birthday) and I said to myself then out load that I wasn’t going to have any cake, then I said that I would take it home and eat it the next day (when I had enough points to actually have it) Not ten minutes later I’m looking at my mother and realizing that I’m stuffing German Chocolate cake in my mouth and I didn’t even realize it. I’m not sure why it happened, but exhibiting that type of behavior (eating without even knowing) scared the hell out of me… and I just knew. I HAD to get back on track!

This weeks meeting hit a nerve, I was not (and haven’t )been mindfully eating for a while and it’s starting to catch up with me. So after reading  the Weekly I’ve been:

  • Eating without Distraction : This is hard for me, I usually eat in front of the TV or eat while looking at my phone.
  • Eating at the Table
  • Eating Slowly and Tasting my Food : I’m learning to have a positive relationship with my food and eating slowly, tasting and enjoying it is part of the process.

So as I write this on a Wednesday (to be posted on Thursday) I can safely say that this is a better week that the best month has been. I’m eating better, I’m tracking EVERYTHING, and I’m feeling a lot more positive and myself and the food that I’m eating, I’ve gone back to making meals ahead of time, portioning them out so that I can have them for more than one day, and I have to say it takes a lot of stress off of me knowing what I’m going to have and how many points they are ahead of time.

I will be going to my regular meeting on Sunday morning, and I’m not expecting anything. my weight my stay the same, it might change, but I need to learn that my actions won’t always reflect on the scale… I need to learn to be okay with that.

Through it all I have to remember that this is important, and I’m important enough to succeed at this

 

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If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7, Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20, Week 21, Week 22-23

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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers–Week 17, 18, 19 and 20

 

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Week 17: This week we continued to talk about portion sizes and eating on schedule. Since I decided to lose weight eating on schedule is essential to my success, when I’m going to be out for the day, I’m taking my lunch and my snacks with me, I ALWAYS have something, so those Hangry moments become few and far between.  I lost 3 pounds

Week 18: This was a tough week for me food wise, my doctor put me back on prednisone and I immediately started to feel hungry ALL THE TIME. And I ate everything… EVERYTHING. Because Prednisone is known to cause weight gain I considered leaving Weight Watchers.. but everyone said stick with it. so I did .I gained 1.8 pounds

Week 19: Week 2 on the dreaded Prednisone, I became more conscious of what I was eating but I tried to make better choices in what I put in my mouth, I went to the meeting feel super fat and bloated and was expecting another gain since my mouth was an open door was pleasantly surprised that I lost 2.4 pounds

Since I am back from my blogging hiatus it’s time to start fresh.

Saturday I went to Weight Watchers (with my mom) two members who had success on the program came to speak, one women lost 200 pounds on the program, and the other close to 40. What I found most surprising is despite the pound difference their stories were similar. Listening to these women I realized something I have been paying way to much attention to the “big picture” when I need to start paying attention to the now. One of the speakers (Veronica) said something that really hit home.  No matter how much weight you have to lose, you only need to lose one pound this week… When you stop looking at the big picture and thinking wow, I need to lose 40 pounds or whatever you need to lose and say, I need to lose 1 pound… it makes it more manageable.

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Today I woke up to snow…. a lot of it. So I knew that I had to get up early but I didn’t plan on doing some serious shoveling before my Weight Watchers meeting (I’ve called it my “last chance workout”) Incidentally when I came back from my meeting I had to shovel again… it’s still snowing and won’t stop until early in the morning …. Yay Winter.

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I was so happy when I got to the meeting (actually I was happy that they were open) I was feeling pretty good, my week was average and no hiccups as far as eating was concerned…. I get on the scale and I see that I have gained 2 pounds and instead of being upset about the gain I remembered that I have my menstrual cycle and that’s probably where the weight comes from… no biggie. Although I a on a serious roller coaster the same dang two pounds…. lost and gained.

Which more than likely means that I’m gonna need a jump start my body..which brings me into this weeks meeting topic “Move It, Love It” Finding ways to incorporate exercise into your life without feeling the burden to workout

Now lets me honest I have a gym membership, but it’s been a while since I’ve been to the gym. I actually enjoy working out at home. For the past several weeks I’ve been doing what I like to call purposeful movement.  You know those little things, “Walking to the mailbox (which is about 4-5 blocks from my house) instead of driving…. go down every single aisle of the grocery store… parking further and believe it or not those little things add up do you 30minutes a day (daily recommended exercise). I will be honest and say that the FitBit has helped me a lot.. it a visual reminder that I HAVE to move. even if it’s just dancing and walking in place. It really has become addicting because every day I want to make sure that when I go to bed I have met ALL of the goals I have set on my FitBit. So days are better than others.

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As you can see I still need to hit my step, calorie and mile goal…One thing that I really want to do is water aerobics, so I need to look into that since Planet Fitness doesn’t have a pool, so I need to see if the City of Chicago has classes since I would like to start in the spring.

Generally this I end the post with a goal, this week I would like to work on getting my 10,000 steps, going to sleep earlier and developing a meal plan for the rest of the week. I didn’t lose that 1 pounds this week like I wanted to, but that’s okay….there’s always next week

 

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If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7, Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20, Week 21

Until Next Time….

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