Writing Prompt: Write a new post in response to today’s one-word prompt – Breakthrough


Today I just want to stay in my bed, I don’t want to do anything more strenuous that rolling over and fluffing my pillow. I’m tired, I’m feeling really lazy, and I just want to sleep away the day. But despite what I want reality has a way of kicking you in the nuts, I need to mop the floors, I need to clean my bathroom, I need to do laundry. go to the bank….. there are real life things that need to be done. Days like this I wish I had a clone, or better yet a Rosie . But on to what I really wanted to talk about one of this things that I didn’t mention in my first blog back was I quit Weight Watchers. I got tired of gaining weight while on Prednisone and being penalized for it. It really broke my spirit to sit in those meetings and hear about others successes and know that I wasn’t gonna have mine maybe a year (possibly two ) down the road, and although I loved the program and it worked for me before, but the only thing it was doing was taking my money and feeling sad.

On Friday I did the Chicago Metro Heart walk with some family members in memory of my cousin John. And while walking I guess you could say that I had a breakthrough. It’s time… I have gained 40 pound over the course of my use of Prednisone. It’s time for me to start back and getting back in shape. There really is no excuse. On Saturday while shopping I got the best news my transplant nurse called and told me that the doctor wants to decrease my Prednisone amount to 7.5mg.  So this week I’m going to create a plan (most likely early mornings) and start a new weight loss journey on Monday, as for weight watchers, I’ll go back when I’m one pond below goal weight. Wish me luck weight loss is never easy… and at the point the only thing that is holding me back is energy, but I’m hoping that once I start going to the gym regularly I get more energy…


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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers – Oprah Can Eat Bread…..




So I haven’t posted about Weight Watchers only because …. well partly because I didn’t want to and secondly nothing has really changed…. weight stayed the same…. lost some weight, gained some weight back… pretty much my cycle  since on the Devil’s Tick Tacks…. weight is still higher than I would like… but you know what… that’s okay…

Good news is since the last time I’ve done a TTOWW I’ve tapered down to a lower dosage of Prednisone, and the less steroids I take on a daily basis the better things are for me in the long run..

So last week I didn’t;t  attend a Weight Watcher meeting, which is odd because I usually go every week, there were a lot of contributing factors…. I have recently taken up knitting. and I was deep in a project, the day before I spent all day at a 10 and 12 year old roller skating party (and I only feel super old, and super weak, when I am around children with an abundance of energy.) and was dead tired, and when you spend a lot of time around  small children (whom I lovingly y refer to as germ magnet a girl with a compromised immune system (ME!) is bound to catch something nasty. So I spent Sunday laying in bed, feeling like death was near while my cat sat on my head while I struggled to breathe,

And because I tend to “slide” when I don’t feel well… I sought out foods that used to hit me in my happy place thinking they would make me feel better….. things like corn dogs, ice bream, chips….. chocolate.. anything that I could grab… and while I was eating these dangerously delicious foods I realized Sunday and Monday had passed and I had not tracked one single thing…. somehow I made the decision that this was how my entire week was gonna go….. so I didn’t track on single thing.

By Wednesday I started to feel guilty…because I track religiously… and I knew this was out of the ordinary… I felt like a kid who had a tiny little taste of freedom…. I didn’t know how to act…. so naturally I ate more junk…. and I ate bread!

Which leads me to the title of the blog. Sandwich bread, I can take it or leave it, I don’t normally eat it because  one of two things will happen, I sit it out and it will get moldy or I put it in the freezer, forget that its there and several months later when digging in my freezer I find something that resembles a wheat brick. But beautifully baked bread. (PANERA) is the Devil’s Playground for. Let’s just say there were two French bread loaves, I took one home, it was demolished within 8 hours of entering my house.

I cute the bread in tiny cute portions, one or two pieces would have satisfied a normal person, but damn it I have no self control, I wasn’t tracking, and it was a carb free for all…. did I mention that I actually woke up out of a dead sleep to eat bread…I’m not sure if that’s hilarious or seriously sad….

And like divine intervention Oprah appeared….over and over again…. I don’t know what it is, but I have seen that commercial more in a week than I have seen any Weight Watchers commercial in my entire life.



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So after watching that commercial here are things that I know… Oprah has lost 26 pounds! And she can have bread everyday…. yeah the problem was that she probably has self control (more likely someone preparing her meals and gives her a 24 grain roll) and I have no and ate a freakin’ loaf….. okay I get it!!! I can not have bread in the house…

So Saturday rolls around and before I go to bed I have decided in my head that I am not going to a meeting on Sunday … once again divine intervention happened. I dreamt of my former Weight Watchers leader Leslie. who is currently living the life in Madrid. anyway we were sitting and talking after a meeting, not about weight loss just about life and how sometimes it gets in the way of things you really want to do….. I didn’t think anything of it, seemed totally real to me… then at 6:15 my feline alarm clock woke me up demanding to be fed (naturally she followed me while I filled her bowl, ate a few kibbles then got back into bed and stared at me). Sometimes Tsuki has the ability to give me the most fantastic bitch face… some combined with my Oprah revelation, a dream of my former Weight Watchers leader Leslie, and Tsuki’s bitch face I knew I had to go to a meeting.

Apparently a lot happens when you miss a week, there were so many new people at the meeting… many people decided that they wanted to change their lives and lead a healthier lifestyle (wow, I should like a commercial). Naturally I talked about my struggles, what brought me back, and I listened to other people and their struggles, and how they are working through them I say this all the time, but for me that’s the beauty of Weight Watchers, I can go to a meetings and know that I’m not the only one…. I’m not the person still trying to figure out how to handle this.  And this week more than anything reminded me that I NEED to go to meetings, they help keep me grounded.

Since I have to weigh-in next week . I’m doing all the things that I need to do, I’m tracking EVERYTHING, I’m drinking water, trying to get enough sleep, and (UGH!!!) I guess I can go to the gym a few days this week (no promises.. since I still feel like crud).

And if noting else, I gotta get my crap together…. I’m trying to me cute this summer!!




If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7,Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20,Week 21, Week 22-23, Week 24, 25, 26, Week 27, Week 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 331 Year and a Restart Later, Prednisone Sucks, Oprah, Getting Talked Off the Ledge, Smart Points and Surviving It All, Oprah Can Eat Bread


Until Next Time,

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Writing Prompt: What Bores You?




I am naturally a person who get’s bored easily… actually I’m not sure if it’s boredom or that fact that over the years I have conditioned myself to do more than one thing at the time, as I write this I’m playing Song Pop on my cell phone, Watching Full House: Take  2 (which is a play on words since the pop group in the series is called “Take One”… anyway) on my Kindle and writing this post and so far I’m doing pretty good at it. So the idea of sitting down and watching television bores me, I NEED to be able to do something else, even if it’s to look at my phone occasionally, just to see the latest passive –aggressive Facebook message that has show up on my wall.


Something that I have noticed…. particularly since restarting Prednisone that my patience is a little bit “thinner” than it was before and I tend to me more moody than I was before (all documented side-effects) and if people bore me, I will either zone them out… seriously I’m not sure how I do it, but it’s like I’m listening to them under water…. I only listen for key words and my name, which I know… if not a good thing. I have found myself having conversations with people I generally like, but either the conversation is getting to long, or I want to talk about something else…. I start to zone out and have to pull myself back in.

I know this is a bad habit and I might seriously miss out on something that I need to hear. So as apart of my “resolution” of trying new things and being more understanding I am learning more patience with people and hopefully they won’t bore more…. cause let’s me real I not the life of the party everyday (and nor do I want to be) why do I feel like people should be that way with me?

Wait, did I even answer this question? I don’t know I’m a little bored….. oh well



Until Next Time,

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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers: Ugh, What The Heck?



So last week I finally made Lifetime status, which was expected…. I also gain weight, and that was expected as well.. but what I didn’t expect was the nearly 5 pound weight gain…. ugh, what the heck? In all fairness sugar was my best friend that week and I didn’t work out… but 5 pounds!!! I was on my period and I’m pretty sure I didn’t take a water pill that day…. but I guess this is where I should say I really see the how the physical aspect of weight loss works….the week after I made lifetime I didn’t weigh in.. they say once a month is the least you can do and frankly I think that’s better for my psyche.

Last week I decided that I was going to do some meal planning, what started out as making salads for lunch turned into an entire week of lunches and dinners, breakfast I had to make the day of…. S20160116_171728o last20160116_175239 week I had salad with shrimp, salad with chicken and salad with tuna, chili and turkey sausage with collard greens from lunch (the last two were left overs) For dinner I had shrimp, quinoa and mixed veggies for dinner (for 3 days), oxtail soup (leftovers) and Friday I had dinner with my parents which was awesome Jamaican food (I had Jerk catfish, cabbage and peas and rice…yum!!).

So I made quinoa for the first time last week. I always wanted to try it…. but was a little freaked about cooking it… thank goodness you can make it in the rice cooker. I used a little chicken broth and it was REALLY good, and cooked to perfection. and it was really good with the shrimp and veggies, and it was pretty low in Points .

This week the meal planning is gonna have to be put on whole, I’m dealing with some major GERD issues, and at this point drinking water gives me serious heartburn. So I’m trying to avoid the foods that trigger reflux… and I’m pretty much gonna be eating bland, so that’s gonna take a little bit more time for me to plan out…. so it’s better that I simply cook day to day this week depending on how bad my GERD is….. also I’m gonna try a different medicine and hopefully that will work….. cause this sucks….

It’s even gotten to the point where I can hardly taste my food salty, sweet, sour….. it all taste the same to me…. and you would think that would make me not want to eat…. nope I tried to eat everything that I could because I wanted to taste something…. anything…

Although  I didn’t go to the gym I am happy to say that I am keeping up with my FitBit Challenges, both the Weekend Warrior and the Workweek Hustle…. some of these people are no joke, and for the first time (well the second time in a row I’m in the top 10!! And I even got out and walked in the cold and the snow a few times…I still find walking outside…even when its freezing cold more enjoyable then going to the gym.

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Then this happened…. Guess I got what I wanted I wanted the accountability and Weight Watchers noticed

And as I said that in my head I devised a plan that I would weigh myself at home (wait what?) and monitor my weight on my non weigh-in weeks…  and last week was a gain, this week was a loss! I know that there is a maybe 2-3 pound difference between my scale and the Weight Watchers scale, and I played with my head if I should weigh in this week., I knew I had loss some weight, but by the time I got to my meeting this morning I had talked myself out of it.. because I weighted myself this morning in only my underwear, so I was unsure how much weight my clothes would add on, and if my clothes were too heavy I didn’t want to pay the 15 buck penalty….. so in the end I just sat down and simply went to a meeting…..

It occurred to me that although my new Weight Watchers status is really nothing but a new title, everything is still the same, EVERYTHING. I wake up with the same challenges, and sometimes I de really awesome, and other times I fail miserably, there is some comfort in knowing that every day is a new day and a new opportunity to make better choices


This week Facebook reminded me that it’s been a whole year since I’ve been on Prednisone so to “celebrate” the occasion of one year on the Devils Tic Tacs. I present my fat, prednisone face.




If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7,Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20,Week 21, Week 22-23, Week 24, 25, 26, Week 27, Week 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 331 Year and a Restart Later, Prednisone Sucks, Oprah, Getting Talked Off the Ledge, Smart Points and Surviving It All


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Tyra Takes On Weight Watchers: Oprah, Getting Talked Off the Ledge, Smart Points and Surviving It All


OPRAH:  A few weeks ago, anyone who follows weight watchers was pretty tired of hearing about “The Biggest Change in Weight Watchers History”…..  only a few weeks before that we heard how Oprah had brought stock in Weight Watchers… it all made sense…. that’s why Gail joined! Listen I’m the first to tell you I’m not a fan of Oprah, I don’t drink her kool-aid and honestly I don’t think she can tell me how I should be living my best life. (Yes, she can afford to live her best life, she has millions can afford a 200 cashmere sweater while she lounges on her farm in Indiana or her mansion in California, while average Tyra is robbing Peter to pay Paul just to insure that she doesn’t go in the red with her bank account….I might be slightly bitter) 293519LOGO

GETTING TALKED OFF THE LEDGE: The day that the “Beyond the Scale” program starts was really the day that I decided this is it… I am done. My weight was creeping up every single week. I walked into that meeting weighting more than I did when I walked into Weight Watchers a week ago…. I was over the whole process and was seriously over wasting my money on a program that was not longer working for me. That day Noreen was there, Noreen (whom I mentioned before on this blog) has really been a lifeline to me even when I didn’t realize that I needed them.. I walked into Weight Watchers the week before I handed in my letter from doctor the receptionist who I will call her Vera said, “You sure you want to do this, it’s like cheating” looked at my letter, put a “note” in my file. So I’m standing there asking her “what’s next” and response was, “nothing different has happened now we know that your doctor wants you to maintain your current weight” and that was it;  now let me say that I have been very honest about my struggles and she knew I was on prednisone and she was well aware of why I had the letter…. so my feelings were hurt that she said that and honestly she wasn’t really acting in the “spirit of Weight Watchers” and it it took all of my energy not to curse her ass out. …. so fast forward back to the week that Beyond The Scale started after my experience the week before I honestly gave zero fucks..Noreen pulled me back from the ledge. We talked for 20 minutes about how frustrated I was and how after last week I decided that I was done. She wanted to see the letter, which I still had in my purse, she read it, looked at me and said, “this is exactly what we need, now let’s take a look at the note”  Vera in fact put a note in the computer but she didn’t actually put me in maintenance like she was supposed to. So Noreen, my WW Leader Cheryl and I came up with a maintance plan… I decided I can give myself 6 more weeks and if I still felt the same way I would quit. What I learned is that I need to have 1 point person…. Vera ain’t it, I don’t know what her problem is, she’s been a leader for a long time, but this is the second time that she’s said something made me give her a second look, the first time she said something that I felt was really odd was in the beginning of my WW journey, I told mentioned I would add 7 extra point to my daily points and she told me that the weekly 49 were not to be touched at all, they were there for emergencies…. Emergencies? Like what. I half a pint of ice cream fell in my mouth emergency? I went to to another leader for clarification…. I needed to know.  And of course, she told me that was absolutely not true I could use them as I saw fit. I don’t mean to make Vera sound like a bad person, but it’s clear she’s not MY person. That was also the day that I learned about the new program.

SMART POINTS: I don’t like change, I have mentioned that a lot on this blog, it’s hard for me to adapt to  new stuff, I was at the point in my Weight Watcher journey were I had nothing to lose… maybe this change was what I needed. It’s funny how the changes were things that either I desperately needed to change or things that I had complained about in my meetings. Now Sugar and Fat are heavily factored into points. Fitness for fitness sake . I will freely admit that those Fit Points were my safety net. I would use those after I had plowed through my weekly 49. Focusing more on your and the journey instead of the number…..Now while all of this was going on I was doing my best walking (which I loved) and doing my best to counteract the Prednisone, but then I busted my knee, the official diagnosis was fractured patella… I had to have blood drained from behind my knee and I was wearing a stabilizer was on crutches, it was a mess… which meant for weeks I was unable to do anything, so the weight crept up and my mood went down. My knee is a lot better now, but there is still a huge knot on my knee and I can’t be on my knee for any length of time (it feels like I’m kneeling on a rock







Looking back now, I think I went through the stages of grief….. I have now moved on to acceptance, the program is not easy, it’s a bitter pill for me to swallow. It’s hard sometimes to accept the fact that the caramel macchiato that I had this morning was 18 points….. 18 Smart Points…. What in the actually fuck is that? I mean seriously that like two meals…. but you know what I drunk it, I enjoyed it, and I realize that it wasn’t worth it, so I’m going back to my black coffee with equal and sugar free creamer which is only 1 Smart Point. So I guess that’s the beauty of the program.. make better, smarter choices…

SURVIVING IT ALL: There was a lot of fear going on maintance, every week I was gaining weight. I wasn’t sure if even doing that was a good idea. there comes a point where you just have to walk the path and let it take you were ever it goes (and for a control freak like me.. that’s hard…) As this entry goes live on Sunday I will be at my regular Weight Watchers meeting and would have officially completed my 6 weeks maintance and will me a Life Time Member (which is a whole can of beans) This is certainly not how I wanted to get to Life Time, but my journey has not been the typical one, and it will never be, Life Time will bring a while new level of challenges that I have to take one week at a time. I am roughly 6 pound lighter than my official maintance weight, my weight goes up an down every week…..depending on what I’ve eaten and done, I’m expecting a gain this week, between being premenstrual and having horrible case of prednisone rage/hunger I’m hoping it’s not a huge one….. but we shall see.


Tomorrow isn’t the end of anything, it’s just the continuation. And as many times as I’ve said I wanted to quit I am super grateful to Weight Watchers, I have meet so many people who have let me in and shared their lives with me, I’ve met friends, I got to that meeting every week and know it’s a safe place where I can say things to people who understand and not judge me, I can tell them how I woke up from a dead sleep at 2am had a bowl of ice cream and went to bed, and not feel like I’m being judged and have someone understand or have a similar story. It makes me not feel alone. Losing weight is hard, we all know that, that’s why so many people quit, It’s better when you have someone in the journey with you.

I have to remind myself how awesome I am. I have to remind myself that it’s okay to toot my own horn. I have failed so many times at this weight loss thing. It’s amazing despite all the crap I’ve gone through that I’m still doing it. I no longer want to be average….

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I thank you all for your patience with my while I took an extended hiatus from blogging, Thank you to those who came to my blog even when I wasn’t posting…. that’s amazing! Thank you to those who reached out to me while I was gone asking me where I was, and thank those any new readers I may have you all are apart of this journey and I sincerely appreciate you. I hope that you have a wonderful new year. And may it bring you good luck and good health.

If you want to check out my journey so far: Week 1, Week 2, Week 3, Week 4, Week 5, Week 6, Week 7,Week 8, Week 9, Week 10, Week 11, Week 12, Week 13, Week 14, Week 15, Week 16, Week 17-20,Week 21, Week 22-23, Week 24, 25, 26, Week 27, Week 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 331 Year and a Restart Later, Prednisone Sucks

Surviving it All,

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