Before I begin let me just say that this is MY diary, and how I see things, my weight loss and my journey, you don’t like it you can stuff it! That being said… let’s continue
I am grateful for all the support and encouragement that I get while on this journey, but when does it become sabotage?
I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve become extremely sensitive of people telling what I should eat, how I should eat. For example if I tell you I have a tuna sandwich from subway, a your response should not be “WOW, that’s the worst sandwich on the menu”…. and so what if it is… I ate the sandwich and other stuff, and stayed with in my caloric, carb, sugar and fat range… so why should you feel concerned about what I put in my mouth.
I have found that people LOVE a fat person, they are cute, and cuddly and for the most part amenable, we are the comic relief. So when a fat person wants to become better, do better, it becomes EVERYONE’s concern. And yes, SABOTEURS will emerge, they mask themselves as friends, family and coworkers, but the one we should all be concerned about is the one that we see when we look in the mirror. Lately I’ve noticed that I’ve been doing small things the sabotage myself, namely drinking things (outside of water) and not accounting for them in my daily dairy.. and I know what more than anything those sugary drinks will add up, and show up when you least expect it.
This whole, “NEW YEAR, NEW YOU” mantra is more than just something ad companies are using to help get people in the gym, it’s actually something I’m taking to heart. I’m on this whole new spiritual, physical, emotional journey. I am getting rid of the bad, (relationships, feelings, you name it) and surrounding myself with pure positive energy. I can’t stop others from trying to be the saboteur, but I know ones things for sure. I will no longer be sabotaging myself.
As always when you know better, you do better…. until next time!